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Hello My Lovelies!

Do you ever have a Fabulous Friday and then in a matter of thirty seconds it comes crashing down?

Amazing how that happens isn’t it? Well…it happened.

I was enjoying my half day off yesterday and looking forward to my date this weekend with Montana. We had planned to go to the Big Mo drive-in movie theatre to see Jungle Book and Captain America after I got off work Saturday.

It’s been such fun with him over the last six weeks and I was excited that I FINALLY seemed to have made it past the second date disaster zone that seems to be my struggle in life. We had the best date last weekend. He and Koda came and surprised me on Sunday and we had plans for this weekend.

I have been very careful about not getting too emotionally invested.  My sister is always telling me I fall too hard and too fast for people that I need to take some lessons from the Ice Queen. I guess that’s the artist emotional side of me…but I had been mindful to guard my emotions and my heart. This was the first week I allowed myself to be happy and get a little bit excited.

I was sitting on my couch yesterday afternoon watching Chicago PD (I’m slightly obsessed with the whole Chicago series…PD, MED, Fire…) and my phone went off. I knew by the ringtone it was Montana.

Excited, I picked up my phone expecting it to be about our date tomorrow….only to read this:

Hey, I need to tell you something. Billy (bar owner of Coates) introduced me to a gal earlier this week. Her and I kind of hit it off and I don’t know…something about it seemed like a pretty good connection. I hate to do this because I enjoy our time together. But I don’t want you waiting around for me and missing out on some other guy. I’m going to see where things go with her because I feel like I can see things further down the road with her. I don’t know how to explain it to make it sound any better. Just how I feel I guess. I’m really sorry….. :(

Yeah…not what I was expecting at all.

I replied: Thanks for letting me know.

A few minutes later, I got another text telling me he just didn’t feel right not saying anything at all. He then proceeded with the whole “You’re going to find an amazing guy who will love all of the fabulous things about you. I’m just sorry it wasn’t me…”

Ha…

I wasn’t devastated but it did hurt….I cried a little….It’s been a year since MB and I broke up (crazy how time flies huh?). I’ve been very selective about who I have gone on dates with since. I wasn’t looking to have my heart broken again, but I guess that’s the risk you take when you go on a date huh?

So I did what any girl would do…went shopping…then had a tearful moment after I checked out because all I was holding was a bag of cat food and toilet paper…

Thankfully my Berkley bestie was working the bar at Longhorn and I happened to have a Darden gift card thanks to my awesome momma. So I sat at the bar (my parents would be appalled), eating chicken tenders (sometimes you just have to say screw healthy food) and watching the Braves game. Told my story to the two hilarious ladies sitting beside me who were appalled that he had texted that and laughed with them about life for awhile. The man sitting on the other side of me with his wife overheard and told me before they left that it was pretty lame and sh*** for a guy to do that and that I was better off without him.

My other bestie was sweet enough to drive back to town to sit with me for awhile. She is the best! I am thankful for her listening ear and hugs and I’m glad we are kindred spirits.

So after the tears, the anger, the what-the-heck-is-wrong-with-me moment…I realized there is nothing wrong with me. Mind boggling….

I always tend to blame myself when things go wrong. But I can’t do that. I have to accept that just because he chose that ending for our story doesn’t mean that I messed the story up.

So I think it’s time I stop trying to take control of my love story and let God do His thing. It is the one area in my life that I struggle to give Him complete control. I want it to happen now. I love my single life. I love the things He allows me to do, but I want to share that with someone. I want to have my own family to come home to at the end of the day. I want the kind of love my grandparents shared for 55 years.

So thanks Montana for reminding me that what I want, wasn’t what I had.

XoXo!

One Sweatpants Wearing Lemon

 

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4 and Counting…

Well my lovelies…I’ve done it!! I have finally navigated my way past the first date, the tricky second date & post-second date freakout (him this time not me!!), the tricky third date and the OMG I’m on a 4th date!!

But that means date number 5 is looming!! What! I’m in shock…holy cannolies…

I did it…

So what have we done so far?

Date #1 – Waffles at 1am – A bit unconventional for a first date I admit, but when you can’t sleep and you’ve been talking on the phone for three hours and he says … hey so random idea…do you wanna be crazy and grab some waffles? (I mean they’re only my second favorite food!) I may have been already in my pjs, curled up in my bed, but you’re only young once so I said why not! It was crazy fun! I took Montana to our local hole-in-the-wall restaurant. We laughed and talked until about 3am. I got to meet his dog Koda who had been curled up asleep in his truck while we were eating. She loved me what can I say I’m a crazy dog lady…lol. We hugged and parted ways.

Date #2 – Read all about that in Weekend Wrap Up: A little Baseball & Brisket.

Date #3 – Read All about that in Weekend Wrap Up: Captain America & Slushies!

Date #4 – Read all about that in Weekend Wrap Up: Sunday Suprises

Date #5! I am really excited about this date :) I LOOOOOOVE drive-in movie theaters. Both Montana and I have lived in small rural towns that had one and when I mentioned we had one about 45mts away he jumped right on that for our next date. (See guys..girls are REALLY simple…you just have to listen and plan the dates accordingly!)

Weekend Wrap Up: Captain America & Slushies!

Hello Lovelies!!

It has been such a crazzzzy weekend but a fun one :)

I worked commencement on Saturday then rushed to make the Mother’s Day banquet with my family. I’m so thankful I have such sweet ladies in my life!

After a yummy lunch and hanging out for awhile, I headed off to Lindy dance class. It was a lot of fun!

Sunday was super busy, running to church with my family. Got to see my little sister and then heading back to my aunt’s house for lunch with the family.

I love how crazy it is when we all get together. Lots of voices, laughs and crazy things nana says.

While I was there Montana texted and asked if I wanted to go to the movies. So I headed out to meet up with him in Camden.

He had been wanting to see Captain America: Civil War and I hadn’t seen it yet.

I was tired so he drove us to the movies. We headed to the Village at Sandhills. Lots of laughing on the way. I didn’t die from his driving haha.

It is so nice to go on dates with a guy to takes care of everything. He bought the tickets, asked what snacks I wanted, and even got me extra butter on the popcorn.

The theatre was really, really small! And I don’t like to feel claustrophobic. You would know the only seat left open were in the middle of the row. I hate having to climb over people..but I did it. We finally sat down and the guy beside me was quite overweight and overflowing onto me. Thankfully, he moved and switched seats with his daughter so he wasn’t touching me anymore…whew!

But then it was tricky. Trying to balance Montana’s drink, my drink, and the popcorn haha. I ended up having to wedge my arm under Montana’s and his poor long legs were sooo cramped.

The movie was really good! I haven’t seen the first of the Captain America movies (judge me…I know!). But I really liked this one! Definitely going to have to watch the others.

After the movie, we headed back to Camden. Montana was really glad I had come to see the movie. I enjoyed being with him. He’s beyond sweet and pays attention to details. He’s always picking on me and it cracks me up because he’s always making me laugh. Apparently, he does it because he likes my smile haha.

When we got back to Camden, he fussed at me for not getting a slushie at the movies. Ummm hello…he remembered slushies are my favorite thing???!! what….who is this guy?

So before I knew it, we were pulling into Sonic for a slushy. I couldn’t believe he’d never been to a Sonic before. I guess they don’t have those in Montana haha.

Sipping on a slushy and watching him inhale a burger, foot long and tater tots was ridiculously fun. I can’t tell you how much I enjoy these little moments. I don’t need fancy dates or expensive trinkets. It’s these little moments of quality time spent together.

He drove me back to my truck and we ended up sitting in his truck just talking for a few more hours. He even called his mom to wish her Happy Mother’s day while I was in the truck (that was a little weird but he wanted to….so who am I to say no haha).

After a few more laughs, he hugged me and we parted ways. I’m looking forward to our next date!

XoXo!

One Powerade Slushy Filled Lemon