Life is Beautiful

Life-Is-Beautiful

Hi Lovelies :)

This week God has constantly been reminding me how worthy I am of His love. For so long, I’ve felt broken and ugly..How could He want something so broken? He reminded me. Because I AM WORTHY. Worthy! I don’t often feel like I am..but as I continue to work my way through our Bible Study, I see assurances. He showed me in Psalm 139 that I am worthy….I am fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of a Father whose love NEVER changes. He cares for me, loves me, and I can always depend on his truth and not this roller coaster of feelings life throws me.

Last year was a roller coaster for me. I bought a house, remodeled a house, coached too much, stretched myself thin, struggled desperately in my first semester of graduate school, and wondered why no one loved me. I felt worthless. Rejected. Discarded.

As I battled through those fickle feelings, God was constantly drawing me closer to Him. You are beautiful my darling, He said. You are captivating, He whispered. How my heart longed to be those things. As I dug back into His word, I realized how I had failed to invest time into my relationship with Him. I had been going to church and reading my Bible, but somewhere in the chaos of my life…I had lost those still quiet moments with my Father.

The amazing thing…no matter how far I run, how little I invest, my Father stands there waiting with open arms when I need to run back to Him. Broken relationships can break a woman. I had been holding so tightly onto my heart for fear it would get broken again. Trust me, He whispered.

Tears filled my eyes. Never would my heavenly Father disappoint me. I slowly opened my hands and gave him the thing I treasure the most, my heart.

I had lost the girl I used to be. The one who loved Jesus with her every breath. The world holds no hope for me. The evil that seeps from it threatened to destroy me. I let go of all the hurt, anxiety, the layers of regret, the shame and embraced His love and the healing began.

I am worthy. I am beautiful. I am captivating. I am His.

There is power in the word of the Lord. He took my chaos and turned it into peace. He took my broken heart and made it new. He blessed me with the most amazing gift of all, His love.

I had one more thing clutched tightly in my hand..the reigns to my love story. But I was tired. Tired of looking for this fabled love. Tired. I turned back to my Father and said here, take these. I released the control that I had so tightly held for the last year.

I’ve often joked with my mom that I wished God would just drop a guy in my life and say, Hey Kat…here he is. I don’t know why I’m so surprised that He did just that. This new chapter in my life is amazing :)

All of those hopes, dreams and wishes I had been quietly recording in my journal for years are coming true. I can’t begin to tell you what a blessing having MB in my life is. I am amazed everyday at the beauty of his heart and his sweet smile. He reminds me so very often of how amazing I am. I am, I’ve realized, amazing. For the first time in my life, I’m embracing the beauty of what makes me…me. I should be amazing, I’m created in the image of a the most beautiful thing in the world, my heavenly Father. I thank Him daily for this six-foot five heap of blessing He’s brought into my life. I’m amazed at how intent MB is on pursuing my heart. He reminded me again last night that he’s not done with my heart to sit back and enjoy the journey.

This weekend we enter the next phase of our story. He’s meeting with my dad and praying for his blessing to pursue me. In another week, I meet his mom. I am constantly praying that I will be as much of a blessing to this man as he is to me. I am nervous to meet his mom! But so thankful she raised her son into this wonderful man of God. I couldn’t ask for anything more :)

Life is beautiful!

XoXo,

One Worthy Lemon

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Weekend Wrap Up

Hi Lovelies!

Mmmmm…it’s a dreary Monday here. I’m sitting here in my bright yellow chair listening to the rain hit my windows. I love that tink tink tink sound! It’s so soothing.

This weekend has been crazy! But so good :) My heart is full and my cup runeth over. Friday was such a fun day! Several of my friends and I are doing a bible study called Keep It Shut. I must confess learning to zip my lip is becoming quite a challenge. I’ve discovered there is some icky stuff in my heart I’ve gotta get rid of. I’ve also discovered the less rested I am, the “witchier” I get. Note to self, sleep more, talk less.

Friday night was crazy! My dad and I installed my washer and dryer at my house :) It took us a minute but we finally got the hot and cold water figured out. No thanks to the contractor who put two blue knobs on the water lines…Dear sir, hot water line should be red always!! But alas…we figured it out by process of elimination.

We ran to Hibachi to grab some dinner because no one felt like cooking. It was a nice dinner with my parents. And I seldom say no when sushi is involved :) Afterwards, we ran into Lowe’s and of course my mom found some poor plants on the brink of death that she thought she could revive..and sent three home with me. I’ve got a darling little baby peace lily that has spruced up since I started watering it. A dear friend told me I should put it in an aquarium with a Betta fish (WHICH I LOVE!!!! I had one for 4 years..and my sister may have killed it…but we won’t go there..). I think I might go fish shopping after work tonight…

Saturday was fun! Matt and I met up with his sister and her fella (aka Matt’s best friend!) for breakfast at one of my favorite breakfast spots. Can I just say how much I treasure this sweet guy? He picked me up again, and I love it. I absolutely love it. I can’t begin to explain how much little stuff like that means to me. It’s absolutely amazing. I ordered my usual blueberry waffle with an egg. I know..I’m boring. But have you had a Belgian waffle with fresh blueberries? Ummm…delicious!

Breakfast was fun! I was nervous but his sister put me right at ease. Meeting the sister is always a tricky thing to me. I am a sister, I know how scary we sisters can be to the “new girlfriend”. Sometimes we’re secretly plotting your demise..sometimes we’re sweet…it’s a delicate thing. It was hilarious to watch Matt during breakfast. I think he turned seven shades of pink and red…too cute :)

After breakfast we ran back to my house for a quick study session with one of my MBA classmates. Then Matt suggested we go pick up my mirror since it was on sale and hit the thrift shop. (BE STILL MY BEATING HEART!!) A guy that loves thrift stores…this is bliss. We tooled around the thrift store and stumbled across some vintage cameras. I thought he was going to have to drag me away. I found a Brownie Hawkeye in working condition :)

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Little nerd history about the Hawkeye! It was introduced by Kodak in May of 1949 and was discontinued in July of 1961. The 1950-61 models have an amazing flash attachment that connects to the outer left side with the HUGE bulb bowl.

It’s by far one of the most popular cameras ever made. Still fairly popular with photographers because of the unique image size 2.25×2.25..hummm kind of like Instagram…The one I bought is in great shape. I ordered some film from B&H and we’re gonna try this baby out soon :)

While we were thrifting, my mom called. We had a family emergence situation and I had to leave. Matt was so sweet :) I started apologizing for having to cut our day short and he simply said, Family comes first. Ahhhh….It’s so nice to have a special guy who completely understands that and lives by that.

My mom and I headed to Charleston to help. It was a hard weekend, but one that held a lot of healing and love. We came back Sunday night and I went over to Matt’s to spend time with his sister and her fella while cooking for the Super Bowl. We made Buffalo Chicken dip and Spinach Artichoke Bites (my all time fav!). MB’s sister made a really yummy salsa dip too! Matt brought us all a treat from work. He worked a double again this weekend, but thankfully they cut him early Sunday so I got to spend a few more hours with him.

He works at Longhorn Steakhouse on the weekends and they have the most amazing dessert called a Chocolate Stampede. Now I can’t really explain how awesome it is without a visual…

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Sheer bliss….

To tell you how awesome it is…they sell over 1 million of these babies each year. It’s that good folks :) I found a recipe for it this weekend. Whether I’ll be able to make it and it taste the same remains to be seen, but I’m always up for a culinary challenge.

We enjoyed splitting our chocolate stampedes while lamenting over the ending of the Super Bowl. For you Patriots fans…yeah yeah…congrats or whatever. For those of us pulling for Seattle…what was that last pass? Hello…

It was a really fun night getting to know Matt’s sister and watching the two of them interact. Too precious :)

So that’s a wrap of my weekend!

What was your favorite weekend moment?

XoXo,

One Chocolate Stuffed Lemon

This is modern fairytale…

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Once upon a time, a beautiful princess lived in a city. Sadly in the city, princes were scarce and those pretending to be turned out to be frogs. She walked the city day after day, wondering if she would ever find such a man as the rumored Prince Charming seemed to be.

Frustrated one evening after meeting yet again another prince who turned out to be a frog, she went to her friend’s castle to lament about the state of their fair city. The other maidens of the castle agreed with her sad tale of woe. Upon such sadness did they decided to travel about the countryside. Out of the town they went, determined to clear their minds of these dreadful frogs.

Upon a small place did they stop to dine and rest their weary horses. As they listened to the music of the night, the princess was approached by what she thought must surely be a frog in disguise. One of the maidens gave vouch to his character, but the princess was not so easily swayed. Yet, as the night wore on…what she thought was a frog…began to strangely look like a prince..could it be? Was there one fair prince hiding in the midst of the city walls?

The night ended and the princess ran off to her castle..leaving the prince quite distraught because he had yet to ask for a number upon which to call the princess by.

The other maidens fair, began to dabble and play as only cupid would. They conspired to reunite the prince and the princess. Subtle (not subtle) hints were thrown, a through some twist of fate her number traveled through hands until one day the prince inquired of the princess if he might call on her. Hesitantly she agreed and traveled on her trusty steed.

Again she was wary…having had unpleasant experience, after unpleasant experience with toads will do that to a girl. But alas…the night was full of surprises. For never once did she feel the dread that usually crept upon her soul…instead her heart was full and happy as she daintily sipped her tea. Wonders began to run through her head, and she quickly tried to put them to bed. Yet as the night wore on, she felt sadness creep upon her when the end came near. But the promise of another night with the prince she held dear.

Anxiously, she awaited for the night to come. She worried of what to wear, how to do her hair..a week later (though to her like a fortnight did it feel) the night drew near. She twiddled and twitched as she awaited for the arrival of the prince. Never had anyone offered to pick her up before…it was a night of surprise she would soon discover…for whence the prince arrived upon her door, his arms were laden with roses red. In twenty years of living, never had anyone been so sweet or brought the princess such delightful treats. Twas a night to remember and one she’ll never soon forget. For as they left her castle, the prince escorted her to the carriage at which he halted and opened up the door. Her heart began skipping beats, for never had she experienced anything as sweet. Never had one been so kind as the prince was to her that night. As they traveled the city fair, sampling food, and enjoying the night, not once did she have any fear, only a peace and a joy she held near…for finally the princess felt as if she were a brilliant beauty to behold…a treasure….and treasure her he did…

Sadly, the clock struck 12 and the evening came to an end..but not without the promise that he would see her once again :)

XoXo,

One Treasured Lemon