Fleeting

Hello my Lovelies,

My heart is full tonight. Very rarely does my Heavenly Father clue me into the larger picture of my life, but tonight I caught a fleeting glimpse of my story through his eyes.

As we sat around small group offering up prayer requests, I listened with a heavy heart and quietly took notes. I love to pray and sometimes when I pray out loud the rest of the world ceases to exist to me.

But tonight, as I prayed for a broken family and paused sensing the need to be still. I heard the next prayer offered up. I was amazed to hear Eric pray for me. I felt humbled…. As he prayed, he thanked God for using me to show him what an example of a Godly sister looked like. For using me to show him love and kindness. For using me to show him a God’s picture of a healthy family unit. For using my prayers to strengthen him and challenge him. For giving me the gift of prayer. For enabling my prayers to have power. He prayed for me to chase my dreams. He prayed that I be prepared for the lose of my brother and that I have the strength to walk that journey.

I cried. He didn’t know. He didn’t know that today of all days, I needed to be reminded of that. I have always known that my brother’s death will be a chapter I will have to walk. It’s been on my heart for years. I have prepared my heart, but it doesn’t mean I am ready for that moment to arrive.

I cherish every moment I have with him, and I have no doubt in my mind that if he had to choose between his life and saving another, he will choose death.

This summer he begins a hard chapter. A brave chapter. He will be risking his life on a daily basis as he works to save people from immediate danger. There are risks. There are high prices for small mistakes. But I rest in the knowledge that God has equipped him to meet this challenge with the fearlessness of a lion.

God spoke through Eric tonight. As the tears rolled down my face, I knew that it wasn’t Eric speaking. It was my father. I prayed this week for confirmation. I prayed he would hear my cries and make himself known to me. And He did.

XoXo,

One joyful Lemon