Hello my lovelies! I’m desperately struggling this week. My life is full and it’s busy but my heart is lonely. I struggle when I get lonely. Those temptations to go back to unhealthy relationships emerge and the feelings of self pity (which induces chocolate cravings) attack with a vengeance. It’s hard. It’s that season where all your friends are getting married. Yes, I know it happens every year around this time but it seems to get harder and harder every year for me. I’m genuinely happy for them, but at the same time I crave what they have. What girl doesn’t want to be loved and cherished by a handsome man?
I’m running, I’m sewing, I’m crocheting more than a grandma, I’m working out like I’m a body builder and I still have this huge gaping hole that nothing is filling. So why?
Within the last two weeks, my three closest friends have been moved out of my life. They’re making some lifestyle choices that I don’t agree with. Does that end our friendship? No, but I do not want to hangout with them when they participate in those activities.
So that brings me back to square one. My lonely gray square. I’m trying to color my life yellow but it’s hard. What do you do when life’s got you down?
XoXo ~ Lonely Lemon